I am a Sexual Assault Survivor, but I no Longer Survive

I am a sexual assault survivor, but I no longer survive.

For years, I merely survived, attempting to bury the pain deep within, but in doing so, I wasn't truly living. The journey to acknowledging what happened was arduous, often feeling insurmountable. However, taking the courageous step to confide in a few individuals offered temporary liberation. Yet, disclosing the truth to my doctor felt daunting, fearing judgment or disbelief.

Surprisingly, he listened, tears in his eyes, asking, "What can I do to help?" This pivotal moment led me to therapy, where I embarked on the challenging path toward healing, realizing it wasn't as straightforward as I had hoped.

Each time I summon the courage to recount my story, my heart races, yet a burden is lifted from my chest with each telling. Finding my voice amidst the pain became my anchor when I felt overwhelmed. Being a sexual assault survivor encompasses various emotions and experiences, but it does not define one's entirety.

Surviving isn't synonymous with being "overdramatic" or "over-emotional"; it's navigating triggers and rebuilding a sense of safety. It's acknowledging the trauma and rediscovering what brings joy and fulfillment. It's embracing the good days and weathering the bad. It's learning to breathe when anxiety threatens to suffocate you and finding the resilience to reclaim life beyond mere survival.

If you're grappling with trauma and haven't yet found the courage to share your story, know that I'm here for you. Whether you need a listening ear or a compassionate presence, my inbox is open. Your journey matters, and you are not alone.

Remember, you are strong. Your feelings are valid. And together, we can navigate the path from surviving to thriving.